NDE, I have had some of these but were very light and almost nothing, they never affected me or affected my feelings. But the one I am talking about happened last week, it was terrifying, I was shaking from tip to toe, everything was afraid in me, every cell was screaming for help, I was suffocating and I really realized that we are (human beings) are nothing and death is really real.
I do not know how it happened I was eating, as usual, but seems that I didn't chew well at the end of my meal because I was in a hurry to watch a program and start smoking. I was alone at home, my wife was at her parent's house, and I suddenly chocked, I couldn't breath, I couldn't talk, and I couldn't do nothing. I was just looking for an invisible help. Anyone passing by the window, or if the telephone can come to my hand and call my family to say goodbye, or any of my neighbors who might hear my thoughts and come to help me.
I was terrified, I was afraid, and after fighting for an uncountable seconds, I decided to surrender, I wanted to say the Shahadatain but I couldn't, here I was not only terrified, I was horrified, I was afraid of death, I know that one of the worst things a Muslim can face is to die without saying Shahadatain, so I started to fight again I was moving my head like a slaughtered chicken and I was trying to do anything to say it, finally I sat on my knees waiting for the death angle to come and take my soul, knowing that I tried hard to say Al-Shahadatain and hoping that Allah will forgive me for not saying them, suddenly I coughed and I vomited and finally I breathed after more than a minute of trying. The first thing I said was Ashhadu anna la elaha ella Allah wa ashhadu anna mohammadan rasool Allah.
From that time until now I started to look at life and people from a different point of view, death is real guys, this life is nothing, and if you still dis-believe in Allah, or if you depend that you will do what Allah ordered you later on after you enjoy your life, believe me you might not live to do that because of a piece of chicken. I was afraid since I didn't yet pray al-3esha and I preferred to eat before praying, what about you my friend, how many days and nights you didn't pray?!!
Get back to Allah and start praying, get back to Allah and ask for forgiveness, get back to Allah and ask for mercy, since you will never know when a chicken might get stock in you throat and die because of it.
3 comments:
Khoms
7amdellah 3la el salameh ya man... i was thinking of what you said to me while chatting yesterday so and after you reject to tell me i decided to go to your blog to check if you mentioned anything here... ma tshouf shar BIG Bro.
sa7e7 before i forget i started to pray before few days with hope that nothing will stop me doing that :)
7amdella 3al salameh khamees basha :)
Wallahi ya aboo il-khums, ilhamdullilah 3ala salaamtak. I wonder how life will be with out you around (i.e. terrible).
Man, take cake when you eat chicken next time, and be careful of the thin nail-pinned bone next to the main bone of the fa'7deh, it really was about to kill me one day.
You know me man, I eat super fast. I'm sure the Angel of Death had many opportunities to catch my soul, but he can't do it without an order.
At least now we appreciate your value more. And you are now less attached to this virtual world, and more closer to Allah Sub7anahu wa Ta3ala.
Again, ilhamdillah 3asalaamtak.
Basbooos (aka. B.A.)
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